This is me trying to piece together my “Limerence” for DoubleJ
Starting with the oldest record I have access too^^ way back in early 2014 when I was in Auckland, New Zealand and J was in Seoul, South Korea. Daylight saving was still in place , so the time difference was exactly 4 hours. I was ahead, so If I messages around midnight , J would see it at 8pm.
Initially , it feels like I’m exhibiting mirroring behavior , some of my tweets seem to try and find common ground or relevance to his . The rest reveal information about me or they seem to be attention seeking.
First record I have access too …
Few minutes later , Attention seeking or trying to stand out and be different…
Next day , revealed a bit about myself …
After this there is an incident where I sent multiple tweets in a day, All of them imply that i’m tipsy and drinking with my friends. I believe this is me making connections to a photo uploaded by J’s mate where they both are having a good drink up.
Here’s the pick J’s mate GunHee Uploaded !
In response to this here are my tweets ( I’m ashamed and mortified at who I used to be!)
And then it looks like I stopped ! Phew!!
On the 14th , I seem to have not wished him for valentines , ignored the fact that I drunk tweet spammed him the day before and just simply send him a
Now the above tweet was sent at 11.38pm NZD , so Valentines is over in NZ not in Korea.
At approximately 8 pm Korean time I sent the below tweet ..
This was probable in response to J sharing an excerpt from a book he was reading called “The living heat” by Kim Mikyung
J’s tweet said
For me, this is one of the reasons we should listen attentively to other people’s voices/sounds
Own problem is a jagged stone, even if it’s just a small jagged stone, we still fall over it. While even if others’ problem is a mountain chain, we can still climb over it without any difficulty. Could we talk about it easily because it’s other people’s problem? No. It’s because we can see everything clearly when we stand one step backward. The reason why I have been able to answer people’s questions is the same. Getting far away is a method to have a good view of everything.
What are the parts of our body that we can see with our own eyes? Just two arms and legs, stomach and chest. Even our face, the most important part, we can only see it through a mirror. Same with our back and the back of our head. Like the back of the moon, I can’t see properly the other half of my body. Maybe that’s the reason. The reason why sometimes, other people can see through my problem that quickly and accurately.
“The living heat” (살아있는 뜨거움) – Kim Mikyung
However , later that night he sends another tweet that has me over the moon as it seems like a response to my earlier tweet.
I’ve not officially learnt Korean , so there are still a lot of mistakes…sorry! I’m going to bed early tonight as I have a little headache,,,, sleep tight J^^ Did you eat chocolates?… Don’t forget to brush your teeth ^__*
My limerence was already in place by now and these tiny connection probably help sustain and solidify the condition.
J’s tweet mentioning chocolates was sent a few hours after this above tweet of mine.
JJ : I received one chocolate.. hehehe
Unfortunately , I don’t have J’s time stamp anymore as he went through a tweet deleting phase in early 2015 and all the blogs that have his old tweets don’t have a time stamp either…sight! But I had J starred as my favorite , so I was notified when he tweeted , so my response time on most occasions were pretty close to his tweet time.
So to J mention chocolates my response was …
The notification probably woke me up … I write
J I woke up super early , its 5.30 am here ( Sleepy smiley) ha ha ha What with your expression? So funny (Laugh smiley) star star Thanks Really! star star I’ll buy you lots of chocolates later … okay (cutesy tone) J your probably asleep now *kisses* sleep tight (Smiley)
END OF CONNECTION 1
15th Feb after my early morning tweet , I’ve been to work and back . One of my favorite things to do once I reached home was to tweet J. So this evening I went for Gold!! Damn!! What was I thinking?
So about an hour after this rant of mine .. J tweets
Just an expression .. and a pic!
Obviously , I’m notified and my response …
I’m chiding him about being skinny saying , J you need to eat some food already ^__^ Hungry? I’ll buy you something yummy (Smiley) !!!
END OF CONNECTION 2
That night between 1.13 am to 1.58 am I sent J 15 tweets. Each tweet had a pic from the Lantern Festival here in Auckland. I tweet photo spammed him… the poor guy hehehe ^^ My last message to him read
J this is the last one (Smiley) Thanks for being there for me all day long ….cause of J I think I’ll make it . J i’m sleepy!! bye….sleep tight star x5
Woke up 12 hours later and tweeted 2 selfies of myself but not @J
Around 2.30pm NZ time tweeted his asking if he went to the hair salon as there are hidden cam pics up online!
Then at 8.30pm NZ time I sent him a pic of my Dinner ^^
10.30 pm NZ time , I read news online that J’s band had won the Japanese portion of their lawsuit and I tweeted him my Congrats and support.
Around 11.06 I send him a tweet with a link to a fan made video , chiding him about his habit of sticking his tongue out while performing…asking him if its his deliberate concept hehehe^^
I ended my twitter session at 11.24 pm NZ time with a no mention tweet saying good night with the selfie of me ^^ So today I had uploaded 3 selfies of myself that were not sent to J
I woke up at 6.58am to a tweet spam from J ..
END OF CONNECTION 3
So I’ve replied to all the tweets , probably when he uploaded the as it was 3 am Korea time or he uploaded them and went to bed and I responded to these when I woke up at 6.45 am ish NZ time .
I’ve then obviously been to work and back , no @J tweets until later that evening . Looks like a responses to his uploaded tweets. It’s are 2 in the afternoon for him and 6 in the evening for me.
END OF CONNECTION 4
So after this I spent my days on twitter dissing skinny guys LOL! My next tweet @j was not until the 21st . On this day multiple tweets were uploaded by both of us , No Connections! I was on my tangent and he was on his ^^
23rd for the 5th connection and then I’m posting this one … these are longer that I imagined …Phew
END OF CONNECTION 5
And I believe , that this is reaching on my part and that when I upload the next 5 connection they are also probably me and my limerence ….up to no good!! But seems like I was dense and excited nonetheless….Stupid AhRee^^